I find it painfully ironic that the day after Misty died it started to snow. She _loved_ winter, and making snow angels. ^^ I still keep having these horrendous dreams about her dying in slow torturous ways and every morning I wake up depressed, disoriented, and tired from expending so much mental energy during the night. I finally figured out way I wanted to be with her when she had to go. Besides being able to say good-bye on last time I needed that closure. I needed to see her go so that I wouldn't be in the stage of denial I am now. I like being at school a whole lot more than being at home, because when I'm at home there's this constant reminder of that unpleasant reality. When I'm at school it doesn't have to be true, it's just like I'm away from home and I'll see her later...I know I won't but I keep hoping I will. I went grocery shopping last weekend and I always had to battle my way to the kitchen because Misty was there. I was so used to that that I was prepared to see her as soon as I opened the door and so I reached down to pet the air. *sigh* Time heals all, at least a little bit. I wish I had cried more about it at the time and let more emotions out, but alas that ship has sailed.

Anyhoo, on a more upbeat note I got to go skating last night with a small group of friends. After getting on the correct bus to go to Coraopolis, we found out that the route is not always the same...the long and the short of it was we ended up at a power plant. The bus driver was suppose to go back to the garage, but he was nice enough to call up transportation and drive us directly to our destination. Needless to say I felt so miserable for dragging my friends out to the boonies. My luck sort of went downhill from there. I came up behind my one friend while we were skating and grabbed his back to push him, and he reached around and grabbed my wrists. He tried to check me but I dragged him into the wall too (I hope I didn't hurt him). Then Sarah came from behind to give us a double check, he shifted a little, and my head went into the boards. Then I promptly sat on the ice. The bus was late, and then once we got back to the city we got asked for directions from a couple in a pick-up truck, and asked for money by a woman wandering around. She gave us a really lengthy story and I felt sort of bad. I didn't know if she was duping us or not. I hate that. After that we walked to a corner and witnessed a car crash. It happened literally right before our eyes, and then my bad luck was the joke of the night. Regardless of the bitter cold I still had a blast and I hope everyone else did too. We went back and watched a movie. Ultimately we didn't go to bed until 4AM....then got up at 7:45AM. Ahh I have tons of le homework to do, so I must go. Have a great day!